Dancing with the Phantom

I have recently been dancing with the Phantom and not realizing it...Thinking I

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"should" be "struggling" that the fear was "normal", the possession.the justifying... My instincts off.... then it came...love/forgive him for he knows not what he does....  then the chaoes left  and my real Father came back to me offering his strength and protection... and with His protection my heart could open and I could beam and radiate the lovely juicy feminine that has been longing for expression.   I love this inner connection...I LONG for this inner connection.....Thankyou GOD for the experience regardless of how brief.

how do I stop the struggle?

wow!! the Phantom has become so much more real as I have engaged with that inner aspect of ME! the surrender and the comapssion... a struggle at this point.  It's subtle and really  becoming so much more real and challenging.... surrendering to the surrender?how do I find the place of compassion inside for this inner figure ????  I'll Pray for now......

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Phantom

From the Phantom to LOVE

The only way out is compassion and LOVE....

I'm letting go into LOVE

Trust..trust myself to fly....let go of what holds me down

trust myself to let go into LOVE...Like in my dream..letting go into the enfolded wings of the archangel Michael.... that trust

I'm in Love with LOVE, I'm in Love with LOVE, I”m in Love with LOVE

HMMMM …...What is fantasy, what is real?

Yes what is reality?

What I allow myself to perceive ...which is many..... and none of them are real....

LOVE is the constant!!!!!

In the openness it is all there and synchronistically it comes...hmmmm...Yes!

Can I open and stay open ….

...at all times....this is the key? Or too much to ask...Or is this a set up?....Love myself..... compassion for myself.... Perfection does not exist in the physical world...in Love it does.. because only in LOVE do all imperfections disappear.....when we are not separate.

Contraction into this “only” reality is limiting , painful...I'm getting it....Let go!!!! Love is....Uniting, compassion is the key that opens the door!!! YES!!!!

I kiss the Phantom because I see his heart...he hides his love to avoid the vulnerability...Thank God I finally see it!!!! He is not the enemy!!!

There is no recipe... Opening and allowing and presence are all that is required... then GRACE envelops me.

All realities are there...LOVE connects them all...

...the LOVE...

it's the sacredness and who can hold the sacredness? I can...Yes I can....it is in me... I feel it.. I know it's been there all along.

And yet it's not rigid at all , it's not “a place”...hmmmm

laugh, fly, giggle...express... all of you all of me....

“mommy ,mommy” I hear...The innocence calls me...my child...hear me.... and I'm in my own place... the boundary and the opening at the same time....I embrace her in me.... An embrace so familiar...all exists there........and that embrace feels like HOME!